So, I’m sitting here (finally, the puppy is sleeping!) trying to get some studying done for a Chemistry exam on Thursday. Chemistry is my least favorite subject so far (my teacher is the head wackadoo of all teachers), and I could picture one billion things I’d rather be doing than studying right now.
Last semester I noticed that in order to put off doing my work, I’d grab some food. If I was snacking I wouldn’t have to do my work, right? Right. Unfortunately, all that this habit left me was an extra 5 pounds and less sleep. I’ve been working hard at dismantling my triggers with food, but nothing brings out the habits like studying!
So, what just happened 5 minutes ago? I cracked open my Chem book, opened the computer, and then as if on auto-pilot, I went to the frige, got out a muffin, and brought it back into the office with me. Mid-bite, I stopped! I had a conversation in my head that went something like this:
“Amanda, are you hungry?”
“Come on, tell me the truth. Are you hungry.”
“So, why are you eating this muffin.”
“Because I don’t want to do work.”
“A-ha. That makes sense. You don’t want to do work so you’re eating instead. Is it helping?
“Well, not really, since I’m aware that I’m using food to procrastinate, and I know the work will be there when I finish.”
“Exactly. Why don’t you put the muffin down, and if you still want it AFTER some studying, by all means have it! But, this time you’ll put it on a plate and eat it at the kitchen table.”
“Sounds like a deal!”
There you go…a little glimpse into my psyche. This happens ALL the time with me. I continually ask myself, “Am I hungry,” “Do you need to eat this,” and the most important, “WHAT DO YOU NEED RIGHT NOW?”
In this case, right now I need to get studying. But I know I’m exhausted from being up early with the dog 2 days in a row. I need rest, sleep, and yoga, which I will give myself later today.
I’m chuckling thinking about how this posting is just another form of procastination, but hey, at least it’s not a muffin!
Enjoy your weekend!